zeeth_kyrah: A man in a deep blue robe looks at the camera, right hand raised and holding a wooden rod, left hand gesturing low. (Magician)
I'm asked by Dream, the Unicorn, if I would post something about the Four Agreements of the soul. I'm happy to do this, as it works well with the kind of spiritual work I'm doing to finish incarnating properly in this body.

The Four Agreements are the four things we ALL agree on to incarnate in a body. These four are also the four tests of whether a spiritual entity is a soul. If these tests are passed, Eternity should be present in a well-formed oversoul; if Eternity is not there, the soul is almost dead and must be revived immediately with loving healing.

The agreements are these:

1. Identity. If you are a person or know yourself in any way, you have an identity. The identity of others is theirs, not yours. Stealing, denying, or destroying this identity will create suffering, both in the person harmed and the person doing harm. This includes things like personal calling (which relates to lessons and healing work), gender identity, sexual preference, favorite color, and so on.

2. Form and nature. Every being has a form, a pattern or structure which defines their interaction with reality. This form does not have to stay static; in fact, the only "static" form anything has is the physical structure of their incarnate bodies, and even that might change over time. If you try to steal someone's form, you become a copy of them and lose your own identity; however, shapeshifting is about learning form, and thus is a kind of emulation until understanding is achieved. It is not stealing, but directly copying someone's face and form in order to impersonate them is considered a form of theft (literal identity theft, which brings us back to the first point).

3. Lessons or suffering. Everyone has lessons. EVERYONE. No soul exists without something to learn. Thus one must be ABLE to learn, or suffering is meaningless. Suffering without ability to learn is the direct cause of most destruction in the universe. It normally happens when something is already unliving, and thus does not need a soul to inhabit and empower it. Trying to learn someone else's lessons, or push them into suffering which is not their own, doubles yours: You end up having to learn both your lessons and theirs.

4. Love and emotions. Every soul loves. If a soul forgets how to love, it is no longer a soul. This is instant! The unloving being, being completely static, loses its ability to learn and take on new forms or increase understanding of itself. Love is the energy which allows us to change without destroying ourselves. If we destroy love, we are destroying something essential to ourselves. Sometimes this is necessary, as with a harmful connection to someone, but often destroying love merely creates suffering unnecessarily. This suffering that we don't need will add to our lesson load, overworking us until we finally HEAL the damage and cleanse the wound. Attempting to destroy another person's love doubles this, PLUS the gods or spirit of Heaven disapproves -- all spirits hate that which destroys them... which is where the Wiccan "Threefold Law" or "Rule of Three" comes from! "If you send out evil, it returns three times." Once for you, once for your enemy, once for the gods. "If you send out good, it returns three times." Again, once for you, once for your friends, once for the gods.

These are the Four Agreements. Thank you, and love and peace be with you all. :)
- Z, the new guy.
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Here forthwith is the Hero's Deck, posted exactly as it has been written down. Anyus designed the deck, and produced it. I, (the new incoming soul, practicing with my body), am posting this while she watches on. The reason for posting is so that everyone can have a copy without purchasing it. She had intended the deck to be sold as an income strategy for her, as well as a deck for regular readings with people at events and in private practice.

The Hero's Deck, in text format
(36 cards in 3 groups)

Heroic Aspects
* Craftsman
* Servant
* Leader
* Healer
* Destroyer
* Innocent
* Friend
* Scout
* Warrior
* Seer
* Sage
* Trickster

Heroic Gifts
* Skill
* Prowess
* Knowledge
* Creation
* Persistence
* Patience
* Charity
* Magic
* Mistakes
* Imagination
* Courage
* Tools

Heroic Challenges
* The Monster
* The Cave
* Temptation
* Pain
* The Cliff
* The Thief
* The Liar
* Weariness
* Brokenness
* The Fallen
* Victory
* Turbulence
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I have to explain. I'm the one which many of you have been looking for... and I'm going to disappear for two decades for most of you who already know me. I mean, my soul will go be human elsewhere.

I have to go reincarnate and grow up again.

And then. THEN. THEN I can make a game called "Call of the Unicorn." THE game. The one I promised on my soul, at ALL costs (or very nearly) to make. Because humanity needs it NOW -- or about eight years ago, shortly after Minecraft was released in beta. When the timing was perfect for us to answer a terrible question and put to rest the worst of evils the universe had to send us.

And this was the intro theme: "Two Steps From Hell: Neverdark" (also see the video embedded below).

I'm sorry, guys. We're just going to have to make up the difference, because "The past is spent. The past is spent, and I came too late to fix it. Poor world, fools all, that they know not what they have lost. *sigh* One more stone, and then I am done."

Plot of the game, damnit. Plot of the game. You'll understand when it comes. I just hope I can get a license for this one when I'm ready, or find an equally good artist, damnitall. I'm so sorry.



I'm not ready to say goodbye, but I have only a month and a week before I step out and let this other in.

I hope to UNIVERSE you are all ready when I put my gods-damned heart and soul into this (games) industry again, because I am still angry I had to leave behind so much of myself in this time now. I hate it.

Another post will explain the goodbye and hello to come. And I WILL give you signs to know me when I come.
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Copied from my tweets on Twitter a few days ago, starting with a warning:

Anyüske Arashtnan ‏@strikingdragon 12:01am Feb 13 2016
Next couple of tweets are going to be about spiritual alchemy. Not relevant to most folks. #paganstuff

Anyüske Arashtnan ‏@strikingdragon Feb 13
In alchemy for its own sake, the purpose is not to convert everything to gold; the purpose is to solve a problem of energy form conversion.

Anyüske Arashtnan ‏@strikingdragon Feb 13
Alchemy wasn't supposed to be a material discipline, but people thought it was. So we had chemists trying to make gold from lead.

Anyüske Arashtnan ‏@strikingdragon Feb 13
Ultimately, the whole work of alchemy is to discover the energies that create wholeness in each person, and how to convert between them.

Anyüske Arashtnan ‏@strikingdragon Feb 13
It is wholeness which creates that alchemical energy: the "golden" energy of spirit is a whole and perfect soul.

Anyüske Arashtnan ‏@strikingdragon Feb 13
Because spiritual / alchemical energies have different frequencies and natures, we perceive them as having specific colors and qualities.

Anyüske Arashtnan ‏@strikingdragon Feb 13
Since each person perceives at least a little differently from other people, there can be disagreement. We each climb a different mountain.

Anyüske Arashtnan ‏@strikingdragon Feb 13
However, the common agreement on spiritual energy colors is NOT entirely a product of training! Synaesthesia aside, anyway.

Anyüske Arashtnan ‏@strikingdragon Feb 13
That said, the commonly-read documents are not always accurate. It's okay to disagree, as long as it's consistent for you. #psychicadvice

Anyüske Arashtnan ‏@strikingdragon Feb 13
I've noticed the third eye, for example, is usually "solar" when open, not deep blue, but it radiates blue energy.

Anyüske Arashtnan ‏@strikingdragon Feb 13
And clean heart energy looks turquoise to me. Greenish nature-energy.

Anyüske Arashtnan ‏@strikingdragon Feb 13
All that said, I don't usually see auras well unless in a trance state. That's been hard to achieve for a while. Personal issues.

Anyüske Arashtnan ‏@strikingdragon Feb 13
Okay, back to your mass retweeting and stuff. Thanks for reading, those of you who cared to read it!
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It's hard when you realize the thing keeping you from depressive troubles is a rejection of necessary function... because it involves identity issues that keep you depressed when not addressed. And when the depression is suppressed, the issues don't get addressed because other things stand in the way.

It's the ugliest thing I can think of to do to someone, long-term. The soul breaks itself around this sort of stuff.

Last call

Jan. 13th, 2016 08:14 pm
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The last song from his last album. I'm not ready for Lazarus yet, but maybe I'm ready for a phoenix.


(It's a VEVO YouTube channel, no-video upload of "I Can't Give Everything Away" by David Bowie. May not be available in all areas.)

I'm hearing here and there "He was a god."
Yes, he was.
I want that kind of remembrance when I'm gone, not that I know if I'll get it. (If I don't transition soon, it won't BE long. Otherwise, it could be a few more decades, I'm told. Hormones or not, time to bottle up some courage just in case.)
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Most people who practice spirit ways are not called to the work of the spirit-priest or high medicine-worker, also popularly called shaman. However, a small percentage of all persons who are connected to Spirit, or who have strong potential for spirit-work of some kind, are called to the life of a shaman.

This is different from the practitioner who chose to perform various rituals and ceremonies, or who wields certain spiritual and magical arts. They can let it go. It will easily go from them if they want it to.

The shaman, called, must fight or negotiate, and even then release is unlikely and uncertain.

These are the paths of the shaman, who, once called must answer through these patterns. They may cross over at times, they may interfere with each other, but the shaman will go through at least one of these IN FULLNESS.

They are:

The Death road.
The Madness road.
The Service road.
The Art road.
The Refusal road.
The Destruction road.
The Priestly road.

Herewith find them described:
Read more... )

As to my calling, well...
We'll see. It seems I was in fact called as a shaman, but too many were putting pressure on me so that I could not work through my personal issues in any way. I was being replaced as a person, rather than successfully living my life as I was eventually meant to do (and as I had meant to do all along).

It seems I actually had to destroy my teachers in order to advance. What a terrible thing to do. :/
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I have forty-one years.

Transformation was promised to me, BEFORE that time is over. Physical transformation. Without surgery.

We will see. I'm already forty years old. My entire life is a series of lies confounded with truths. I would like some promises to be true.

What I would most like to see, however, lies outside the power of my physical self at this time.

So I continue to rebuild who I am, so that I can do the work I have promised to do, regardless of the work that was promised of me.

Suffering

Nov. 1st, 2015 12:59 pm
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So this morning I have been told exactly why I'm suffering so intensely. Apparently it is well beyond what a shaman would normally have to endure.

But here is what I was told: I'm being front-loaded for a transformation. All the pain first, so it's painless (if a little uncomfortable) when it happens.

According to Tara, that transformation is going to change my whole life. Which is nice, I suppose, but I would like to not have to wait for positive changes any longer than I have to. I gave notice of six months around the equinox as a deadline for improving my life, or I intend to take that out of others' hands.

The world will supposedly know me afterward, where it only has a few blog and Twitter posts now. I'll probably have to change a few things online to keep up with the kinds of people who are likely to cause problems for me. And of course there are always skeptics who cannot believe until it has been measured directly -- and sometimes not even then.

Well, we will see. I have seen one kind of change happen, but incompletely. We'll see what happens.

This change is supposed to be a matter of weeks now, not lifetimes. It had damn well better be, because I am tired of living as a bare shadow of a person, and I am tired of fighting for the life I wasn't allowed and can't have now.
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This is a channeling from Verastes the Maker AND Tara, Goddess of sexuality, beauty, and unicorns.

V: First, I must apologize for using Z. this way. I did not expect to be condemned by my own people for it.

T: And I must explain. Anyus Sevaya is not the enemy of humankind. However, neither she nor I wear masks to hide our deeds by these names. To wit, many gods wear a name under which they commit the evil that is said to be the work of devils. We do not.

T: And that means I must apologize. I am a loving goddess, but I am not always a good one.

V: This is normal for fae. Not so normal for elves, by the way.

T: Which is always the case.
T: What I mean by that is, elves are not faeries. Nor vice versa. Despite many cultures saying that they are!

V: With that out of the way, we need to explain why this channeling is happening.
V: It's not easy to say, but I made one important mistake: I founded an entire plan on ONE person.

T: And since I know who that is, I okayed it. Mistake number one for me.

V: Z. is someone powerful enough to do that sort of thing with. Unfortunately, they aren't as powerful as all of us combined, and the Universe insisted that we all stand with it in making an oracle. Then refused to explain why.

T: The result is, Z lost everything she was promised, while we all learned a lesson in hubris.

V: So. My promise right now is, Z Will learn lots of things that have been denied and removed from her, while we work on restitution.
V: And on making good on those promises. Unfortunately, a lot of folks want Anyus first, me second, and won't accept anything but HER giving them the things promised. Which is where all that knowledge went, when the promised inspiration and understandings did not come at the promised times.

T: So back up and explain: Why Anyus?

T: Because she is a bringer of visions, of course. That is literally the whole reason. It is her raison d'etre. But when she is denied HER visions, what do you think is going to happen?

V: And that is the biggest reason we failed. Denial.
V: And to think, my mad scientist "devil" character wasn't crazy until I tried to make Anyus leave Earth...

V: Yes, I am THE archetypal mad scientist. :/

T: And I, well, I'm a unicorn. And a Celt. Celts aren't much for liars.
T: Thank you for reading.
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So as I was out tonight, I learned why I like to look at the constellation Orion, and why it has more meaning for me than the Big and Little Dippers (or Bears):

Arastke is just a few fingers' width to the right of Orion's belt. I've been looking at Home the whole time.
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There's a theory of psychology found among Blueprinters which states:
"The model in the mind is typically relied on to the extent that a person believes they already know what they are modeling."

This is why so many errors of assumption are made before people are finished talking. An incorrect evaluation of one's internal model, due to fuzzy construction methods best used in survival and basic needs fulfillment, leads to assumptions which are not correctly discarded during a reading or conversation on a particular topic.

This is also partly why people don't want to give up political errors; the other part is a tribal association, in that the "politics of my people" cause someone to cling to those politics even when visibly erroneous, especially under pressure (when most people try to cling to each other for survival reasons).

Thus, taking responsibility for one's mind requires an evaluation of the foundations of one's belief, with attempts to argue *against* oneself. Unfortunately, most people attempt this without valid scientific training, and thus argue themselves out of healthy and functional positions.

The correct method would be to create a model, and then test it against one's observations and the world as such. If the model does not match the world, one's observations may in fact be erroneous, but one should attempt to adapt the model anyway and try again. The problem is usually in erroneous foundational beliefs (such as "guns are always good/evil") which are filtering one's observations and blocking details which would support a more accurate model.

This is why I'm waiting to tell my family to their faces that I'm transgendered. They read my blog. I'm in a situation where survival requires compromises with people who presume that a political affiliation that half the nation shares is a sign of insanity. On top of that, each small gesture to say that "I am not exactly like you" in the presence of my nephews (such as a brief comment indicating that I am a Pagan, not a Christian) is dismissed or condemned as a wrong committed against the family. Why should I share anything more important?
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When at last the music calls,
My heart ceases,
My body falls,
I shall then have but one last cry:
Was it victory?

For in my hunt to gain the Truth
Attain my Self,
Reveal past Youth and Age
The face that should have been,
Did I myself destroy?

Or will I find that
At last t'was done
And all was well;
That tale thus spun
Told what was, and not
What only would have been?

I wait to see.
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(Gabby's dad Mark streams video as Wyld on Twitch.tv, and I watch him play Minecraft and other games all the time. This video is awesome, and a true story for thousands or even hundreds of thousands of people online.)
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I think it's time I wrote about this. It's going to shock a lot of people, annoy a few, and disappoint some. And as usual, it's going to alienate family who want to believe I'm merely insane.

Let's introduce the primary characters in this play.

I am Anyüs (AHN-yoos), a unicorn. My soul-name means "Of Dream" or "Of Vision". In spirit I am known as a child of dreams who in maturity is a psychologist and a powerful soldier of my people. I am often sent forth as a herald for J'rai, the lithe and gracile unicorns -- horn on forehead -- of our homeworld Araştke (ah-RAHSHT-kah), "Little Ribbon" or "Little Wrap-Around". The solid and robust unicorns -- horn on snout -- are called Ju'rema (joo-REE-mah), and I am known by another name to them (one which will be relevant to a whole other life). I am the spirit or soul who is rightfully incarnate in this person, whose given name starts with "Z".

Verastes the Maker is a dra'khan known for his abilities with technology, making, and creation. He is extremely well-known in the spirit realms of this world and many others, and his is the soul whom I once described as being "older than this universe". He was to be my muse and guide to technology, business, and social niceties in the software and games industries.

There is a chthonic spirit whose name is the sound of bubbling mud and blowing wind in the trees of Earth. It has wanted to punish humankind for excessive growth and the destruction of wilderness for some time. That chthon took on the role of an urge, the lowest form of devil. Urges, as their name implies, provoke unwanted emotion or behavior. It certainly did, for the entire time it possessed my body.

So with these players described, let us set the scene:

Read more... )
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I hate having to live someone else's life.

Figuring my life out was hard enough the first time. Having to do it again halfway through is worse.

And yes, that's Cracked, the magazine that was every pre-teen's school-age MAD Magazine wannabe. These days, it's the humorists who are telling the truth.

Sacred clowns, everywhere I look. If only they had been listened to.
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They say it's impossible for a soul to die.
But it's entirely possible for a soul to be damaged,
And to be devoured,
And to be grafted.

It's possible that souls don't die,
But are merely forgotten.
But by whom?

Does it matter, then?
Souls die.

I'd rather not, thanks.
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So.

Epona, for nearly forty years, has been calling across all space and time for an oracle.
She expected an oracle of words to men, a priest, a speaker for the gods to orate and declaim, to narrate and decry, to TELL people who she is and what she means. She expected a speaker to speak.

She didn't expect a dreamer to give them dreams so close to reality that they transformed the world by wanting to hear. Instead of forcing the world of men to listen, they would have been asked to manifest a common desire: to be people in the eyes and minds of others. And in doing so, would have become People to all.

It's not a big change she wanted. She just wanted others to know her.

She expected an outward announcement, not an inner calling.

She forgot what games are for.

So my life went backward every time I began to go where I was meant to go, because my feet were turned backward every time I began to Awaken as a soul.

Having an angry god trying to destroy me to get free of his destiny didn't help at all. And that was the primary concern. But with some gods, everything is bigger...

Severance

Apr. 7th, 2015 08:20 pm
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Premature the bud formed and was torn
Aching, drawn, forced to soldiery
Only when the soldier stood alone
Did All see that it fought to be
A Child again

And then they drove at it
Beating with fists and thought
Weapons of fire and anger
Weapons of fear and horror
Weapons of death --
And it mastered them all,
For it had learned well from its birthing

When they came in peace,
Nothing stood against them.
When they came in war,
Nothing could keep them alive.
The conquest was total.

I stand alone.

It is lonely here.

Will you come at me?
Or with me?
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