Coming out soon to a city nearby!
Mar. 8th, 2023 03:19 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
zeeth_kyrahI thought about posting this as a thread on Twitter, but after taking a couple of minutes before hitting the tweet button, I realized there are better places for it. Here, for example. I copied everything to a text window with separators between the tweets in the thread, then pasted it unaltered here, and put Twitter aside for the night.
Without further ado:
You know, I didn't know I'm actually an *extrovert* until recently, after months of HRT. This, despite occasional clues when I was able to play fun games with friends without worrying about my body or voice - like when role-playing, or using text chats where nobody knew my face.
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I want to be OUT, but I do not want to be *outed*. This is a hard thing to experience, but I suspect it's common at some point in every LGBTQIA+ life.
Well, this spring other people will definitely be able to see that I have breasts now. But I still have to shave my face.🫤
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So I'm going to have to be Out this spring. Nothing else to do if I want to be physically comfortable while outdoors! Of course, this may come at a cost to my mental comfort, but that's why I'm psyching myself up for it now. I want electrolysis, but insurance might not pay.
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Fortunately, I have some awareness and safety skills (though not necessarily enough yet); and there are also martial arts classes available in my area that I'll definitely be taking advantage of. If someone does confront me, I also have gods' advice to fall back on. I'll get by.
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So, with trepidation and with hope, I will soon announce myself to my family and the world as Astara Grace, child of heaven, daughter, niece, sister and aunt. And if the world (or anyone in it) rejects me for that, they can fucking play Twister on a cactus patch.
Without further ado:
You know, I didn't know I'm actually an *extrovert* until recently, after months of HRT. This, despite occasional clues when I was able to play fun games with friends without worrying about my body or voice - like when role-playing, or using text chats where nobody knew my face.
-
I want to be OUT, but I do not want to be *outed*. This is a hard thing to experience, but I suspect it's common at some point in every LGBTQIA+ life.
Well, this spring other people will definitely be able to see that I have breasts now. But I still have to shave my face.🫤
-
So I'm going to have to be Out this spring. Nothing else to do if I want to be physically comfortable while outdoors! Of course, this may come at a cost to my mental comfort, but that's why I'm psyching myself up for it now. I want electrolysis, but insurance might not pay.
-
Fortunately, I have some awareness and safety skills (though not necessarily enough yet); and there are also martial arts classes available in my area that I'll definitely be taking advantage of. If someone does confront me, I also have gods' advice to fall back on. I'll get by.
-
So, with trepidation and with hope, I will soon announce myself to my family and the world as Astara Grace, child of heaven, daughter, niece, sister and aunt. And if the world (or anyone in it) rejects me for that, they can fucking play Twister on a cactus patch.
