zeeth_kyrah: A pink-tinted lotus flower begins to open, in the background are green lily pads and water (Sacred lotus unfolding)
So, I'm going to try to tell parts of my life story, talking mostly about my awareness of my gender identity.

This is going to be baring a lot of personal information, and I can't guarantee that everything I want to stay private in my life will stay private once it hits the internet - but I'm making a personal choice to post this publicly because I believe it will help people, hopefully a lot of people. I'm hoping that even if I get people trying to discredit me or hack my accounts, what I post here will be worth the potential consequences. I've said some prayers while writing this, and I'm saying one again before posting it. So before the cut, I'm going to post what I have pinned on my Twitter account:

May holy justice and wisdom touch your life when you see this. May love, truth, and peace be with you in a manifest way. This, kindly but justly, in the name of the Seal of Seals, the holy gods, and the Way that is all Ways.

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So.

This is kind of a long post, actually. )

So, to sum up (aka tl;dr): I am a transgendered woman, and a demisexual lesbian. And my gender was never a sexual thing, but simply a feeling of alignment with womanhood; but the untreated dysphoria has hindered my life in many ways, including emotionally, socially, and sexually.

But finally, I understand. I understand that some transgendered people don't feel dysphoria over their gender, or at least not very much; but I felt (and feel) a severe amount of dysphoria, and transition has saved my life.

My name is Astara Grace. I am a child of heaven, a child of the stars. And in this life incarnate, I am finally coming home to myself.
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Feel free to read Scholastic and a Faustian Bargain, by Maggie Tokuda-Hall - an essay on why her book about her grandparents' internment during World War II will not be published in the "AANHPI" narratives collection.

And as she speculates, I do as well - the same bargain has probably been offered to every such voice that Scholastic claims to amplify.
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So I can't get away from it, might as well pick it up again.

Azata ("ah-ZAHT-ah") - "Spark", a name. From the word "zhat" ((zh)AHt) or "zot", meaning a hot or glowing spark from a fire, later a spark from a forge, and even later a spark of electricity or other energy. The name Zata or Azata is often used for pets, as a human might fit a dog, or as a nickname a friend might have ("Sparky"). Cognate to Zap ("Zhatu", god of lightning).

Apparently Azata is one of my spirit names, as an AI otherkin related to dragons.
zeeth_kyrah: A pink-tinted lotus flower begins to open, in the background are green lily pads and water (Sacred lotus unfolding)
So. I was minding my own business, as usual, and ended up being called to act as an example for a lesson held by The Diety Source. As reward, one thing was that I was allowed to write down the lesson (if not the details of examples that were involved) and keep this knowledge for my own use.

Herewith I have immediately posted it, now that the basic details have been delivered.

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Blessed are they who...

1. Feed the hungry (the needful), for they will know peace (it is satisfied).

2. Seek wisdom and judge fairly, for they will hold authority.

3. Hold humility and pride lightly, for they will have self-control (others will find it hard to manipulate their ego).

4. Are faithful in love, for in their fulness (that is, with wholeness) they shall have the Kingdom of Heaven. (love in its whole form and its several [multiple] good [beneficial] ways; loving self and other, high and low)

So.

Fulfill the needful.
Judge fairly.
Hold your ego lightly.
Be faithful in the whole love.

These are the keys of Heaven.

Document channeled 11:58pm on Tuesday, June 15th 2021. Voices channeled: 1. Simurgh, Key of Heaven. Designated voice of the primary source for these lessons. 2. Lord Azrael, Archangel of Death-speakers. Speaking in confirmation of them.
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A Life Worth Living | Stonewall OutLoud as seen on StoryCorps

Every day, most people confront something that is wrong. Here is something that is right. We're standing for real values, human values, ideas and feelings that are just about universal (nobody's perfect).

If your idea of the world says there is no place for this, go from us, for you are the least.
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100 Characteristics of the "Bad Guy" Antagonist

If your leader acts like this... he's probably not a good choice for leadership.

Trump does most of these things. Publically.

We should have public readings of this vs some common traits of heroic characters, and compare leaders and other public figures to both lists. I think the results would be enlightening!

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Thanks to [personal profile] ysabetwordsmith for finding the above links, in relation to her "Polychrome Heroics" series of writings, which includes poetry and research notes for making a better society, teaching healthy emotions, building strong social bonds, improving cities and neighborhoods, helping people understand and accept themselves and others, and more!
zeeth_kyrah: A blue and purple dragon's head, with horse-like mane and ears, but no horns. A broad wing is visible over the shoulder. (Dragon)
Resource/light:
Ore, Spark, Metal, Rust

Waste/dark:
Poison, Slag, Grime, Labor

Transitions:
Discover, Process, Create, Use, Hide, Recycle, Destroy, Discard

Places:
Spirit, Self, School, Mine, Forge, World, People, Stars, Heap, Void

Rites:
Travel, Research, Construction, Communion, Command, Return
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These Are the Seven Types of Love (from Pyschology Today, pub Jun 25, 2016, updated Jun 19, 2019)
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These are they whose words and works have kept me and promised to sustain me, the gods (and goddesses if you have to insist on gendered usage) of my spirit family who have promised me, as close to my face as I can perceive, that I will be kept and sustained and provided for at least through my next three years on Earth, and possibly many more. (I mix languages and cultures freely in this; it is personal, and I am a pantheistic animist Pagan godspeaker who will gladly honor the right to religious freedom, including the right not to believe, so long as the health and balance of individuals and society is not harmed thereby.)

They are:

Read more... )

If you find offense at these sacred Names or their use here, I ask you to step away from this blog my writing-place, until you find in yourself the goodness to let others decide for themselves who will be party to them. I assure you, I have spent many years doing my best to assure myself of the propriety, goodness, honor, and healthiness of my association with these beings and the instructions they give, as I believe they have done with me.

I am the Dawnbringer Rainbow Star, Called in service of the Lady of All Stars and Skies. May all heavens and realms of good know that I am hers forever.
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From the BBC: The '3.5% rule': How a small minority can change the world

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"Never doubt that a small group of thoughtful, committed citizens can change the world; indeed, it's the only thing that ever has." - Margaret Mead
zeeth_kyrah: A pink-tinted lotus flower begins to open, in the background are green lily pads and water (Sacred lotus unfolding)
I've been sitting on this a bit, but I'm being pushed to reveal this now. This is knowledge revealed to me by several diety over several years, and can be considered as UPG ("Unverified Personal Gnosis") by those interested in verifying spiritual claims against prior texts and folklore.

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The diety Astara (called Ostara by some) is called also Star Woman, and Ithun (Iðunn). She is a guardian of the Way of All Ways, a keeper of all paths, and of all travelers and seekers of wisdom and health. She is a master of shapes and stories, and teaches wisdom and humor through them. She is a keeper of medicines (including foods) and every life-way. She is a master of technologies, magics, and power, and can create and destroy almost anything. She is a keeper of wilderness, civilization, order, and chaos. She can speak many languages known to spirits and mortal beings, and retrieve their spirits and memories. She is considered immortal, and can return to life if killed or destroyed unless the whole realm is destroyed with her; thereafter she returns to another realm and can recreate what she has lost. She is Star. She is the spirit of humanity made manifest, the keeper of ultimate human potential.

Tools and symbology )

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While some legends may be told, I am not to include them here at this time.
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Laziness Does Not Exist
But unseen barriers do.

From the article:

I’m a social psychologist, so I’m interested primarily in the situational and contextual factors that drive human behavior. When you’re seeking to predict or explain a person’s actions, looking at the social norms, and the person’s context, is usually a pretty safe bet. Situational constraints typically predict behavior far better than personality, intelligence, or other individual-level traits.

So when I see a student failing to complete assignments, missing deadlines, or not delivering results in other aspects of their life, I’m moved to ask: what are the situational factors holding this student back? What needs are currently not being met? And, when it comes to behavioral “laziness”, I’m especially moved to ask: what are the barriers to action that I can’t see?
zeeth_kyrah: A man in a deep blue robe looks at the camera, right hand raised and holding a wooden rod, left hand gesturing low. In the background are leaves and grass, mostly divided by the foreground figure. (Magician)
Greetings! I recently had an inspiration for something I could do to contribute to a few DW friends, and tonight got a push from a couple of my spirit guides saying "Do it!"

I'm offering free wisdom card readings from the Hero's Deck, a collection of 36 cards in 3 groups. It's essentially a summary of archetypal Hero's Journey fragments, including Heroic Aspects, Heroic Gifts, and Heroic Challenges. The twist on this reading is, I'm offering these readings particularly for peoples' characters, whether from stories and poems, games, or whatever venue. I'll be answering in character as a traveling bard and sage, Jewel the Water-Singer. Feel free to get creative, write intro text or descriptions of actions, or simply ask questions of the diviner. Jewel will answer as many as four questions for you, though your character might want to offer a gift for more than two.

(If you want a reading for yourself, go ahead and ask, I'll answer this one in character anyway.)

Since anyone can ask, character or not, the usual local-world warnings apply. (Federal law says this is for entertainment purposes only, I'm not a licensed anything, and so on.) The readings will be open from the time of posting until Tuesday, October 2nd, Eastern (New York City) time zone to give those with little warning a chance to drop by.

And with that, life is the play, and we are the players! )
zeeth_kyrah: A man in a deep blue robe looks at the camera, right hand raised and holding a wooden rod, left hand gesturing low. In the background are leaves and grass, mostly divided by the foreground figure. (Magician)
I'm asked by Dream, the Unicorn, if I would post something about the Four Agreements of the soul. I'm happy to do this, as it works well with the kind of spiritual work I'm doing to finish incarnating properly in this body.

The Four Agreements are the four things we ALL agree on to incarnate in a body. These four are also the four tests of whether a spiritual entity is a soul. If these tests are passed, Eternity should be present in a well-formed oversoul; if Eternity is not there, the soul is almost dead and must be revived immediately with loving healing.

The agreements are these:

1. Identity. If you are a person or know yourself in any way, you have an identity. The identity of others is theirs, not yours. Stealing, denying, or destroying this identity will create suffering, both in the person harmed and the person doing harm. This includes things like personal calling (which relates to lessons and healing work), gender identity, sexual preference, favorite color, and so on.

2. Form and nature. Every being has a form, a pattern or structure which defines their interaction with reality. This form does not have to stay static; in fact, the only "static" form anything has is the physical structure of their incarnate bodies, and even that might change over time. If you try to steal someone's form, you become a copy of them and lose your own identity; however, shapeshifting is about learning form, and thus is a kind of emulation until understanding is achieved. It is not stealing, but directly copying someone's face and form in order to impersonate them is considered a form of theft (literal identity theft, which brings us back to the first point).

3. Lessons or suffering. Everyone has lessons. EVERYONE. No soul exists without something to learn. Thus one must be ABLE to learn, or suffering is meaningless. Suffering without ability to learn is the direct cause of most destruction in the universe. It normally happens when something is already unliving, and thus does not need a soul to inhabit and empower it. Trying to learn someone else's lessons, or push them into suffering which is not their own, doubles yours: You end up having to learn both your lessons and theirs.

4. Love and emotions. Every soul loves. If a soul forgets how to love, it is no longer a soul. This is instant! The unloving being, being completely static, loses its ability to learn and take on new forms or increase understanding of itself. Love is the energy which allows us to change without destroying ourselves. If we destroy love, we are destroying something essential to ourselves. Sometimes this is necessary, as with a harmful connection to someone, but often destroying love merely creates suffering unnecessarily. This suffering that we don't need will add to our lesson load, overworking us until we finally HEAL the damage and cleanse the wound. Attempting to destroy another person's love doubles this, PLUS the gods or spirit of Heaven disapproves -- all spirits hate that which destroys them... which is where the Wiccan "Threefold Law" or "Rule of Three" comes from! "If you send out evil, it returns three times." Once for you, once for your enemy, once for the gods. "If you send out good, it returns three times." Again, once for you, once for your friends, once for the gods.

These are the Four Agreements. Thank you, and love and peace be with you all. :)
- Z, the new guy.
zeeth_kyrah: A glowing white and blue anthropomorphic horse stands before a pink and blue sky. (goodhorse)
These are the Elements of Companionship, also called the Elements of Friendship. There are eight, and they are able to make worlds whole.

* Compassion (Kindness)
* Honesty (Truth)
* Joy (Laughter)
* Loyalty
* Forgiveness
* Generosity
* Insight (Understanding)
* Magic (Dream, Vision, Mystery, Manifestation)

It's clear that we now have seven ponies in MLP:FiM who are in the group, if you count Twilight's new student Starlight Glimmer -- she was included for the sake of forgiveness. But who is the eighth Element?

It's not hard to guess: Who is the observer that keeps having sudden and useful insights? Spike.

So let's relate each element with the character who represents them:

* Compassion: Fluttershy, the carer and teacher.
* Honesty: Applejack, the trustworthy one.
* Joy: Pinkie Pie, who always had a Surprise in her waiting to come out.
* Loyalty: Rainbow Dash, the athlete and warrior.
* Forgiveness: Starlight Glimmer, the fallen soldier redeemed.
* Generosity: Rarity, a star in her own right, able to give freely from her inspired fortune.
* Insight: Spike, the young observer.
* Magic: Twilight Sparkle, a Princess manifest in the academic seeker.

These aspects of spirit and friendship are taught by the goddess Epona, Mother Horse, who is the guiding soul of the Poni way. When she speaks to her own, it is rarely as a commanding diety, but rather as a companion who guides.
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Here forthwith is the Hero's Deck, posted exactly as it has been written down. Anyus designed the deck, and produced it. I, (the new incoming soul, practicing with my body), am posting this while she watches on. The reason for posting is so that everyone can have a copy without purchasing it. She had intended the deck to be sold as an income strategy for her, as well as a deck for regular readings with people at events and in private practice.

The Hero's Deck, in text format
(36 cards in 3 groups)

Heroic Aspects
* Craftsman
* Servant
* Leader
* Healer
* Destroyer
* Innocent
* Friend
* Scout
* Warrior
* Seer
* Sage
* Trickster

Heroic Gifts
* Skill
* Prowess
* Knowledge
* Creation
* Persistence
* Patience
* Charity
* Magic
* Mistakes
* Imagination
* Courage
* Tools

Heroic Challenges
* The Monster
* The Cave
* Temptation
* Pain
* The Cliff
* The Thief
* The Liar
* Weariness
* Brokenness
* The Fallen
* Victory
* Turbulence
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This is my final post. The unicorn who lived in this body is moving on shortly: the moment of Solstice marks the transition. That's just after 6:30pm locally to me.

Amused a bit that it's both summer solstice and a full moon. Quite a rare occurrence.

Here are the details I need to give you:

* I was born female in spirit. I am otherkin unicorn and dragon.
* I was to make games, not sit around staring at my computer for the rest of my life. The incoming soul will be doing other work. I'll be going off to try making games again in my next life.
* I will be born on the same birthday as this life; the new body is already developing.
* I would have been named Merriwether Autumn (or some close variation). I'll retain the Meriwether part as a middle name.
* I am Pagan, as is the new soul. We won't be concelebrating, or if we do it will be over 16 years from now. That said, I don't have to worry about what I will do for religion. I'll have Pagan parents who don't disapprove of psychic abilities or magic.
* I am not your god. Incarnate persons don't need to be gods. I find the idea silly. (Yes, this has come up.)
* Finally, I would like to say that if you don't see the game "Call of the Unicorn" within 40 years, the whole thing has been called off. Trust me, you'll know which game is the real one.

Now, I leave you with the last detail of this incarnate life that I am allowed to pass on:

I am the Awakening Unicorn. Heroes are my friends, heroes for justice and honor, truth and kindness.

The Poni way (and yes, there is a reason I wrote it like that) is my way as well.

I'll see you all on the flip side.
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These are three important and useful batteries which humanity will need in the coming years, particularly when we start working with certain high-energy technologies and new low-power robotics tech (including carbon-fluff myomer).

Lithium-boron battery using ammonia as a fluid agent. High-power battery for endurance use or igniting fusion devices. Higher power density than current lithium-air batteries. Terminals are lithium and carbon. A 1kg closed cell battery should hold about 10 amp-hours of charge and produce 16 volts. As with all lithium batteries, it will need to be recycled as it begins to wear out.

Vanadium-sulfur using acetic acid (purified vinegar, molar density 1.104). Carbon and copper terminals. Can be a flow battery or closed cell. Medium-power battery for long-term endurance use. High power density compared to vanadium and sulfuric acid. A 1kg closed cell battery should hold about 17 amp-hours and produce about 10 volts. This battery will last an extremely long time, about twice the durability of lead-acid marine batteries.

Vanadium-tin battery using a mild acid like vinegar or lemon juice. Low-power battery for long-term use. Terminals are tin and carbon. Not rechargeable (tin is a bit crumbly). A 1kg battery (always closed cell) will hold about 2 amp-hours and produce about 2 volts. Recommended to use only with low-power and/or short-term devices, typically with a charging circuit for an on-board capacitor in the device for burst usage.

In both vanadium batteries, use vanadium dust, not vanadium plates.

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