Coming out soon to a city nearby!

[zeeth_kyrah]

I thought about posting this as a thread on Twitter, but after taking a couple of minutes before hitting the tweet button, I realized there are better places for it. Here, for example. I copied everything to a text window with separators between the tweets in the thread, then pasted it unaltered here, and put Twitter aside for the night.
Without further ado:

You know, I didn't know I'm actually an *extrovert* until recently, after months of HRT. This, despite occasional clues when I was able to play fun games with friends without worrying about my body or voice - like when role-playing, or using text chats where nobody knew my face.
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I want to be OUT, but I do not want to be *outed*. This is a hard thing to experience, but I suspect it's common at some point in every LGBTQIA+ life.

Well, this spring other people will definitely be able to see that I have breasts now. But I still have to shave my face.🫤
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So I'm going to have to be Out this spring. Nothing else to do if I want to be physically comfortable while outdoors! Of course, this may come at a cost to my mental comfort, but that's why I'm psyching myself up for it now. I want electrolysis, but insurance might not pay.
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Fortunately, I have some awareness and safety skills (though not necessarily enough yet); and there are also martial arts classes available in my area that I'll definitely be taking advantage of. If someone does confront me, I also have gods' advice to fall back on. I'll get by.
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So, with trepidation and with hope, I will soon announce myself to my family and the world as Astara Grace, child of heaven, daughter, niece, sister and aunt. And if the world (or anyone in it) rejects me for that, they can fucking play Twister on a cactus patch.

Comments

[acelightning73]

It's none of my goddam business what kind of naughty bits you came equipped with. And it's nobody else's business either. Shave, pad your bra, wear your wackiest wig, and be proud of who and what you are!

[zeeth_kyrah]

I'd have to buy a bra first (I really should), but I'm not above padding it! As for a wig, I have rather long hair - maybe I'd go with hair extensions instead, since I don't want to cut my hair short enough to hide with a wig.

I appreciate you saying this, though. You're awesome.

[acelightning73]

Just be yourself, as flamboyantly and decoratively as possible. I'm all in favor of having drag queens read stories to little kids. A little kid sees someone in clothes they don't expect and figures it's a costume, like dressing up as Spider Man. A gorgeous gown, high heels, makeup and a fantastic hairdo, and little kids see it as make-believe. Dress up as a princess, and you'll feel like you are one! Little kids understand make-believe.

[acelightning73]

I call things as I see them. I should have realized from your abilities as a seer that you were a two-souled person. And human beings are all different, which gives me joy because diversity is more interesting than homogeniety.

I have always been interested in masculine pursuits like working on machinery, and "boyish" entertainment like science fiction. "You can't grow up to be a scientist - girls aren't smart enough to be scientists." (Tell that to the ghost of Maria Sklodovska! who won two Nobel Prizes.) It just never occurrred to me to change my physical body to make it acceptable for me to dream about the stars. I just didn't realize people were expecting me to want to be transformed. Although I never wore girly clothes if it wasn't socially necessary - I hate having a skirt flapping around when I move; most of the time I wear slacks or leggings. And I'm still fascinated by science (and magick) - I see no conflict between them. And a lot of people think I'm pretty butch.